Today I am exhausted and I can't take in any more! A friend once described it as your head being like a bucket with water in it and sometimes theres to much water and the water starts to flow over.
That's where I'm at I think and my bucket has had ten taps on full..... maybe theres not even a bucket or maybe I'm an exploded fire hydrant water uncontrollably everywhere?
So where am I? In bed trying to calm down and trying to cope with what I've heard, what I'm hearing and what I will hear .
My body is still but heavy. I'm stuck to my mattress made of concrete. I'm aware of what feels like bubbling under my skin and tingling. Every now and then a limb, or over a part of me, will experience a shot of fizzing (inside the bubbles) like Champagne being poured in a glass.
This is not an unpleasant thing I experience and I used to have it daily. It's a type of paralysis; a deep meditative place thats calm and safe.